But the past two days, I have prayed and I have prayed and I have prayed lots more! I have begged God to take this away and I have been so angry for doing this to me.
But more than one of the wise women I know have said this week that this is not Gods doing. That I am Infact seen as a threat by the enemy and this is HIS doing.
I am BLESSED to be seen as a threat by the enemy because it Infact means I am STRONG. I have POWER AND WISDOM AND LOVE in sharing Gods word! I ADORE him and will not let anything change that! The devil is trying to knock me down with this huge trial but I shall not be defeated!
BECAUSE I HAVE GODS WORD TO SHARE! I have his love to receive, I have a faith that is forever growing, I have a life to live taking in the beauty that HE created!
This is Infact MY lives plan and the enemy may interfere but I will still continure to live and learn and mature into a beautiful woman of God, from the young person I am now. My life is not easy and I have made mistakes but I would not be grateful of Gods MERCY and FORGIVENESS if it was perfect!
My health is not good, but if it was perfect I wouldn't be as half as thankful for the little things in life. I would hit the world at a million miles per hour and take no notice of the AMAZING world we live in, I wouldn't be thankful for the gift of BREATHING, SEEING, HEARING. I wouldn't be thankful for the WONDERFUL life forms ALL around us.
I wouldn't have the time to sit and read my bible as much as I do, I wouldn't make time for studying and prayer because I would feel no NEED for it.
BUT PRAYER ISNT ABOUT NEED, PRAYER IS ABOUT THANKS, FORGIVENESS, COMMUNICATION!
PRAYER IS PERSONAL AND DIFFERENT FOR EVERYONE.
I am Infact THANKFUL for the life I have reicieved because it has helped me MATURE, GROW, GAIN WISDOM, it has given me the ability to HELP those who need it, because I know what it's like when the going gets tough!
Gods plan for me is PERFECT!
And that is all!
So glad to see the fight back in you, you are completely right. I love you <3
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